In literature as in life, heroic qualities are found not in a perfect human being, rather they can lie hidden in a person who on the surface does not exhibit obvious heroic qualities. The anti-hero is a troubled individual who can be filled with fears expressed in frailties and anxieties, unlike a traditional hero who stands resolute with clear conviction, idealism or courage. In this way, an anti-hero is more true to life than an exalted hero. A hero emerges through the conquest of fears, no matter what the outcome. We often confuse public success with being a hero when in fact the heroic act started with overcoming personal fears.
We may dream of emulating heroic virtues in our lives, yet most of us can more readily relate to the anti-hero figure, since s/he is a figure not on a pedestal but walks among us. Yet the anti-hero can turn out to be a hero through death and resurrection of the self.
Logan Andrews, the anti-hero of Nexus, is conflicted after the loss of important relationships in his life. He is an awkward, alienated, passive and in some ways pitiful character, whose journey shows the conflict between self-destruction and a disordered attempt to reclaim life.
His journey can end in one of two ways: either in death or in final resurrection. His journey through many initiations makes him a hero because he struggles within himself. In this way, he evolves into a pathetic hero, not a hero in the traditional sense but a hero fit for a postmodern understanding.
Logan’s primary journey is to lose himself and the self-protection he has built up around him to guard against possible hurt and pain. Of course, such walls also disconnect him from life and human connections. So a transformation is needed at the level of conscious awareness, if he is to succeed in reconnecting and breaking the walls around his heart.
Even as a anti-hero, Logan commits some heroic acts. The most important being to trust his intuition and begin his journey to a spiritual retreat. There he meets his ex, Sarah McMaster, and old passions are ignited with potential to destroy or to fulfil the destiny of the two soul mates.
Subconscious forces are at play and conscious intentions cannot control energies unleashed, whether of sexual attraction or vengeful anger. Conscious intentions are not running events at the retreat, subconscious motivations have great powers.
The teachers offer guidance, yet they can only show the way. Each character makes their own journey. The greatest challenge for Logan is the struggle between his higher and lower consciousness. If he fails, he gives himself to the dark forces within himself and if he succeeds he experiences a glorious life free of doubts, anxieties and fears through a transcendent experience of a connection to all life.
He needs to find out what’s ticking inside him. If he can do so then he erases his fears and anxieties and in the process he can reclaim his life. Otherwise, he loses the gamble and is conquered by lower forces. Then he will go down the path of self-destruction.
He needs to know his centre, otherwise he will be torn apart in his psyche. Nirvana is a psychological state untouched by desire, fear or compulsion. So as one dies to the old states of mind, a new consciousness can emerge. If Logan succeeds then he transforms in his life from an anti-hero to a hero. Even if he fails, he still becomes a hero through his struggle with life no matter what the outcome.
Logan is a hero, since he took the journey and went through difficult initiations. Life can have many struggles, great or small, yet as anti-heros in our own lives, we cannot give up. We have to go through our own initiations and develop courage and confidence to live our lives with peace, love and centeredness.